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feeling angry every minute of the day

shumcsm — Sun, 04 Nov 2007 06:54:24 +0000

i am angry at myself and everyone else. the whole world.

getting frustrated for every single small thing.

i am angry that i didnt get good grades in uni for me to get hired to good jobs.

i am angry that ppl dont reply me for the thankyou notes i sent.

i am angry that i didnt pass my first two BTT.

i am angry that i am angry.

i doubt anyone will understand.

anger… losing my temper

so very tired and losing confidence

shumcsm — Thu, 25 Oct 2007 00:19:44 +0000

felt so unhealthy

shumcsm — Sun, 21 Oct 2007 04:24:07 +0000

body is aching especially my shoulders and neck area. must be due to lack of exercise and the many many hours before the com.

going to sign up for gym at cc later. hopefully get to a run.

bawled all becuz of a phrase …

shumcsm — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 23:49:47 +0000

do u know which phrase?

i know why i am so frustrated

shumcsm — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 02:06:14 +0000

my father is just so uncouth. it is irritating and vexing when he speaks in that excited loud “i am the king and they are nothing tone”

concern from all around

shumcsm — Fri, 28 Sep 2007 06:30:16 +0000

broke the news to a few good friends, and they showed concern. so nice of them.

the worse part is over, now it is dealing with the reality.

let’s have some hope and faith.

why am i so blur during menses time?

shumcsm — Thu, 27 Sep 2007 13:19:22 +0000

shumie always do stunts during menses period. last month didnt go for btt. this month:

1. forget to bring hp

2. left laptop and umbrella back in class

3. didnt bring laptop battery nor adapter.so basically i carried a damn heavy empty laptop to and fro and everywhere ! around school. feel so stupid

i dont understand why this always happen when i have menses.

so angry that i cannot get simple things done.

so useless.

oh no… poo’s a geek

shumcsm — Wed, 26 Sep 2007 00:31:10 +0000

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?

You would fall for the geek. If you’re looking for love, consider spending a little more time studying up in the library. To you, there’s nothing more attractive than intelligence, shyness, and kindness; your future love may have four eyes and zero social skills, but he’ll make up for it in brains and heart.

Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

no strength to carry on

shumcsm — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 04:09:54 +0000

sick. too sick. sleepy. no mood to study. despite all the malay book i have, there is no mood.

test is 2 days away.

shumie, depend on urself ok?

i wish i am stronger

shumcsm — Sun, 23 Sep 2007 04:33:13 +0000

well wishes stream in when the clock strikes 12.

but the ……………….. mind is somewhere else.

the house is carrying out normal activities under a hood of strangeness.